I very much look forward to the day when I am able to take a shower in peace.
A day when I don't feel like I have to look over my shoulder.
A day when I'm not afraid to close my eyes.
When I don't fear that the shower curtain will open and
I will see a peeping tom looking in at me.
When I don't have little hands reaching in and pinching my legs,
when I can shave and not have to dodge flying hot wheels.
A day when someone doesn't flush the toilet and send me scurrying into the corner to avoid the hot, scalding water.
A day when I don't say the phrases, "Please get your mouth off of the toilet", or "Get my toothbrush out of your ear!"
A day when little hands don't sneak in when I'm not looking and turn the cold water on full blast.
A day when I can close my eyes to wash my face instead of opening them suddenly to make sure I'm alone and getting soapy, burning face wash in my eyes.
A day when I don't hear breaking glass and smell strong flowery perfume.
A day when I don't have to fear that chemicals are being ingested or poured out all over the floor.
A day when all of the towels remain in the cabinet for once.
When I can step out of the shower without having an audience.
Oh to have a relaxing shower alone. I long for those days.
Until then I guess I will have to get use to being on display and
eventually you get use to the burning, soapy eyes.... I just need to keep practicing.